Sometimes in life I feel like a fool. Sometimes I wonder why I am here and what I am suppose to be doing. Sometimes it feels like no matter how hard I try my efforts come up with nothing and in the end I'm still empty handed.
It often feels like I give and give and get nothing back. I love without condition, without reason and only with hope. It makes me wonder if there is a reason that God made me this way, why I continue to love, expecting only love back and when I get nothing, I'm crushed. Why do I assume that people will love the way that I love?
We are all different, we all live life different and we all see different and love different. So when I love someone that doesn't love or live the way I do am I so confused by it and not just consume the love they give? Why do I make it harder on myself?
I was walking along the paths at Charleston Falls today and noticed that a tree with sharp thorns was standing in front of a treat with beautiful red leaves amongst a forest of barren trees.
Is that why I do? Do I let the thorns get to me before the beauty? Do I let the fact that not all people love unconditionally like I allow me to think that they are being hurtful? And instead on the contrary there is beautiful love coming from them that I need to see further in to grasp? I wonder, what is that I am doing and why can't I just let people love without second guessing or questioning it?
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